it came from the 80s


current mood: what, your tuesday's aren't like this?

considering recent activities...
...this makes sense:

CANCER (June 22-July 22). You're a conduit of the crowd, the medium of the masses and an exceptional communicator to boot! As the unofficial adviser to everyone you meet, say it with intention and it's 10 times as powerful.

current mood: i ALWAYS say it with intention

some of the people, some of the time.
for the most part i don't have beef with people. i am perfectly aware that i may not be everyone's best friend, and i may actually rub some people the wrong way. and, as it turns out, i'm often reminded of honest abe's infamous advice of pleasing all the people all the time.
case in point: at dodgeball, there's a player who seems to have a very short competitive temper. rumor has it that "he's actually a really nice guy", but all i know is when he gets on the court, he's aggressive and short-fused. since last season, when i ended up kicking him out of the building after he beaned someone in the face with the ball from 6 inches away, he's decided i have a personal grudge against him. i can't seem to diffuse him, either, letting him know on any level that look, buddy, it's not personal, because, quite frankly, i don't really care. so last night, he made a big deal about me to the other ref and in front of the other teams, trying to get allies. i promised him that i would make calls based on the rules and according to what i could see... apparently those weren't the right words, since he started screaming about how unfair i was. when people tried to calm him down, he turned on them. he finally got carted out of the building, and i got escorted out by my new found posse who assured me they'd always have my back. thanks, kids.
here's the thing, though. i'm not scared of the guy. he's bigger, he's certainly meaner, and he may be just a little nuts (or pissed off i'm a girl with some authority, who knows). BUT, the thought that kept going through my head as i watched it all unfold was what am i going to do when he turns on one of my "defenders". while i may be able to handle myself here, what happens to those trying to get my back?
hmmm... next week should be interesting.
current mood: crazies...

mid-year resolution
i vow to take up the offers of my co-workers to escape the confines of my office and get outside to enjoy the cool breezes, warm rays, and soft sweet scent of jasmine in the air... even if my report is overdue.
current mood: watch out world, i'm comin' for you

recovering
the derby is done, and i'm attempting to recover. that is to say, today i'm at work (yes, it's saturday), to prepare for a retreat i have with my students tomorrow (also for work), but at least i'm taking monday off (uhh, mostly). i'm not sure how i managed to drive home last night, i was SO exhausted from the event. even worse, i tried to stay awake for the 10 and 11 o'clock news on channel 6 and 7, as i was interviewed by both stations during the derby. i fell asleep right about 10:45 (meaning i missed the warm fuzzy part of the 1-hour 10pm news), and woke up right at 11:35 (meaning i missed it on the half-hour 11pm news). dangit.
but all is not lost! i'm at least taking monday off, and going to the spa on tuesday morning. i hope that's rejuvenation enough until i hop back into the saddle for next saturday's tournament.
current mood: yaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwn

faith
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much." -Mother Teresa
current mood: ((sigh))

i don't wanna
i'm dreading this weekend. don't get me wrong, there's plenty to look forward to: today's the big DaddyO's bday, and sunday we've got mom's day. but with the derby one week away, this is the weekend i go shopping. and in this case, due to budget restrictions and supplies needed, i have to go to wal-mart.

i hate, i hate, I HATE WAL-MART. i also refuse to put the little star in between the wal and the mart. i find it insulting.
current mood: wal-mart makes me sad for humanity.

whoa
completely lost my mind and agreed to meet sensei at 6:30 in the morning to train. ha! actually, it was nice to get moving again without all the pressure of other people's expectations around. AND it led to sensei walking my derby course with me with a little roll-y thing-y that told me the distance between points. when he was done, my predecessor and founder of the derby met up with me to go over logistics that i just shouldn't make up on my own, and we had a great talk... until we saw a commotion over by the library. ** warning, not for the faint of heart or weak at stomach ** i saw a girl on the ground, flat on her back, eyes wide open, not blinking. being on staff, we decided it would probably be best if we kept an eye on things, so we made our way over. she was having a seizure, and unconscious. her head was trailing blood from banging it on the ground so much. thankfully, the girl that had her head (eventually) declared herself an emt, so we backed off a little. i was good, being helpful in relaying info while calls were made to all sorts of people... good until i saw the foaming at the mouth. at that point i started to brown out and had to go sit down. i figured the paramedics didn't need 2 people to take care of.
proves what i've always known about myself: blood i'm good with. no problem. you come to me covered in blood, and i'll take care of you. but i am NOT good with bodily fluids!
current mood: bleh... i feel not great

whew!
all has been quiet on the blogging front because all is CRAZY in the real-world. click here to see what has been zapping all of my extra time lately. this thing is a big deal, as in the fate of my job security relies upon it! okay, maybe not, but it seems like it lately with all the pressures and plates i'm keeping spinning!
current mood: all work, all play?

busy, busy bee... humdrumming away
i've been in quite a mood lately, and it's hard to put my finger on. in retrospect, a year ago, i was quite excited and happy about things in my personal life, but professionally, it was evident that things were coming apart at the seams. a year later, i've done a 180-degree turn: i'm really fulfilled at work (though admittedly i am looking forward to july!), and honestly quite grumpy about my personal life, a funk i can't seem to snap out of. don't get me wrong, i have great friends, and more activities than i can stay on top of, but in the midst of all the frenzy and fun, i'm learning a hard lesson in letting things go, and forgiving someone who seems to have put the value of friendship on hold.
current mood: a little faith, yeah?