my own freud
these days i'm self-psycho-analyzing certain behaviors that have bubbled up to conciousness, namely the fact that i am totally lacking affirmation and attention in one HUGE area of my life, and am thus squeezing it out of contiguous aspects that aren't necessarily arenas that deserve or merit recognition.

step one is admitting, right?

it's weird to me to step back and observe behaviors in myself because it causes me to wonder "where the heck did THAT come from?!", due to the fact that on a normal, everyday basis, i consider myself the standard of normalcy (wink) and altogether pretty stable. so these little disruptions, though i know exactly why they're happening, throw me off balance enough to wonder the Why they're happening... after all, if i recognize it, and don't necessarily want to embrace the behavior, i should be able to knock it off, right? but maybe the healthy part is recognizing it, and realizing that it won't change until the situation changes... and some other strange neuroses takes over.

oh, i don't know. any psych majors out there??