i'm a giving soul
my horoscope said so:

CANCER: You're a giving soul. But the neediness in the world is just too strong a current, and succumbing to it will drag you in over your head. Though you won't be able to give people all they want from you, give what you can.

it's easy to tell how busy i am in direct relation to how often i update this little journal of happenings. it's not that i haven't had anything going on in the past week that merits gracing the cyber pages of history here. and it's not even necessarily the fact that i haven't had time to update it, though that's a ginormous factor in the equation. the issue is that my energies are being zapped in other means, a prime example and very direct 'can't be everywhere at once' situation...s. it's as if writing an email to one person detracts from my writing here, or the hour spent with the girls negates my ability to tap out an interesting vignette from the day before... what a strange give and give and give and take.

those front and center to me know what life has been like recently; the challenges and the load and the planned breaks and the unplanned everything else. and i'm staying afloat... barely. but the past week and a half has been a wonderful exploration of limits, a treading of boundaries, and the rusty utterance of a rare word in my life: 'no'. i'm trying it on for size, and it's not quite fitting yet, but i might get used to that roomy feeling soon enough.