"god pictures"
i once had a friend of mine describe the landscape of a cloudy sky pierced by brilliant rays of sunlight as "god pictures". i've always liked that.
my life has been a god picture of sorts recently; mostly cloudy with some resplendent shiny spots breaking through.

work has been touch'n'go over the past 2 weeks; a situation i will comment on once it has been resolved. for now i can say that change is afoot, and there might be some wicked awesome shifts for me in the near future. but in the meantime, it's a little stressful as my team is splintering down the center of my affection. karate has launched my head to a new dimension as i struggle to coordinate a tournament with non-existent volunteers, in addition to my regular practice schedule (which has been making me sick. ugh.), full-time work, japanese starting up again, belly dancing, fund-raising, and the not-to-be-missed "watching people watch the OC night". it's a lot to handle, even for me. but there are some rays poking through in the most surprising of places in this situation, and curiousity about the end product is keeping me engaged. in addition, i have decided to actually send out some queries to literary agents, solicit donations for the tourney, compete, and sew a vest or 2 for tami so she stops splattering herself with strawberry margaritas. all this, you know, in my "spare time".

distractions, i imagine, so i don't have to focus on what's really bugging me: the realization that i fall head-over-etc for unavailable men. something tells me that's safer. and after years of heartache, i'm starting not to trust that something.