well, in that case...
for the second time in as many weeks, seasoned professionals in my office have nudged, sometimes not so subtly, me to jump ship and move on. not that i'm terribly surprised, and not that i'm nervous to do so (as one colleague would argue). my question is... and then what? the consensus is that i need to be in a field or industry that allows for my creative flair to take more of a center stage role rather than an enthusiastic audience member pop-up like it currently does. but i'm not entrepreneurial, and i have little experience in a marketable creativity, unless you count window dressing back in my freshman year of college. so what now? how does one figure out that "whaddya wanna be?" question when i have tinges of so many different skills, but no real passion to start on a path?
current mood: puzzled

oh, hey there blog world
my sis pointed out that i hadn't updated my blog for a while. yeah, i know. it's a niggling wiggling little thought in the back of my head often, actually. i think the long silence can be attributed to the reluctant realization that i have run out of interesting things to say. or, even more scary, that i have lost a bit of the lens that used to make the life i observed interesting enough to write about.
i'm hoping it's just stress. or... something like stress. at least that's what the shoulders-to-my-ears hunch is telling me.
life's been rolling along, punctuated with some occasional fitful sleep and occasional amusements. for example, i auditioned for and got a part in the 2011 production of the vagina monologues (YAY!!) and just finished up my second stint at bus liaison captain for the san diego susan g. komen 3-day for the cure (pictures here!). discovered some odd back issue that's making my right hip go achingly numb, which is tough for me who has always had such flexible freedom.
life is easier to chat about when linked to a body part, i suppose. oh, and my heart is good, too :)
so... we'll see how this goes, blog world. thanks for checking in again. i can't say that i live here too much anymore (like my own apartment, actually), but i do still pay rent, and will pop in from time to time.
current mood: trying to be good